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You can say anything when you've got nothing to lose.
1. List some things you want to say to 20 different people but you know you never will.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
4. Never discuss it again. <3 *!* *@* *#* <3 *#* *@* *!* <3 1. There are things about you that I could never understand. You've hurt me more than you could ever imagine... As much as I love you as a person I really just wish i could be more of a bitch sometimes. I think you need to be told about the pain you inflict on people. 2. With all that's gone on between us I find it amazing that I still feel bad about the things that happened. Things never really were normal for us, were they? I guess it all boils down to the fact that you never felt what you swore you did. There were three words that I thought you meant, but I was sadly mistaken. 3. Sometimes I lay awake at night, and worry about the future... Is the friendship we've built up in the past few months really strong enough? Do you really believe all the pretty things you claim you "see" in my future? Or are you just pretending so I won't cry anymore? 4. You are a new friend to me... but it feels like I've known you forever. You have a familiar spirit... I could tell you everything. We are so much alike it's scary sometimes. Although in truth I'm sure there are huge chunks of my past that contribute to my insecurities... But you have enough to deal with right now. Let me know when you're ready for it. Ironically you may be the only one to figure out who I'm talking about. 5. If I lived one thousand lives I could never find someone like you. It's as though some vast force brought you to me. I trust you with my life, but sometimes I feel like I could never be enough... My self-esteem is non-exsistent and I'm sure it strains our relationship. I'm such a dark person, but you bring a light to my eyes that I thought would never return... No matter what the populous has to say. "How wonderful life is when you're in the world." 6. I thought you were supposed to love me no matter what, but I see now that your love is on conditions. As long as I act like I am what you want me to be you'll love me... I can't be that person anymore... I won't. If you can't love me for who i am then piss off.... I can't fucking do this anymore. 7. [Edited Out] Gone XD
8. There are times when I lay down, and think how much easier things would be if I could just disappear, and you let me know that I am here for something... You hold me close and make me feel like your little brother, and it makes me smile. XD Even when I fear that life could turn for the worst. 9. You really fucked up my sense of self... I wonder some nights when I wake up with the shakes if you think of what you did to me... If you think back, and regret.... Or if it's just a fond memory and a hot sex scene to masturbate to. I wonder if maybe things coulda been different if I were a better person.... If I were smarter... If I were older... If I weren't so feminine... If I weren't so gay. I wonder if I woulda been popular... focused... normal. Do you realize how much you hurt me? I trusted you... I thought you were there to protect me... You've made it so hard to trust... to love... to show love... to feel love... to understand true love... to make love... FUCK YOU! 10. You have your emo moments, but I know that I can trust you and that you love me. I can connect with you, and you're there to console me... Thank you. You've made my life better... <3 *!* *@* *#* <3 *#* *@* *!* <3 I am emotionally drained from some of these... Therefore, if I decide as such there will be ten more.........
*dOUg*
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